The Old Days Just Blow Away

ok tumblr challenge so epic fail. lol MOVING ON.

but i guess the one thing I just really want to post today was that it meant a lot to see one of my friends really happy like i never saw before. it made me really happy to see that. 

:) i just wished i could’ve video-cammed the moment. xD;;

Hmmm…

I have several bands/musicians that are important to me for various reasons. Of course, who I’m going to name, no doubt, are all Japanese singers/bands. So google them if you don’t know who they are! These are listed in no particular order, but just what comes to mind first.

1. Ayumi Hamasaki: Voyage

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WUvHwvUxL4k

Particularly her song “voyage”. This was actually third album that I got from a family member when I just started having a Japanese pop interest. I don’t know why, but I really liked this song that sung about going away to this some distant place. That idea appealed to me as something magical for a young 6th grader at that time and I guess that song provoked a lot of imagination and happiness with that song…and listening to this song reminds me how many years have passed since I’ve followed Ayumi till now…almost 9 years now. It reminds me also of the years that have passed in my own life as well.

2. Girugamesh. Of course: Crying Rain

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fXyJ2BvDb1U

God I love that song. It speaks like everything of my life in terms of the darkness. I love this song so much and of course the band for singing it so passionately! I guess this band is important to me just because their songs, like this one, reaches out to me personally and I can see the passion in which Satoshi sings the song and it never fails to move me! Its hard for me to find bands that really sing songs that touch me in that way. So I guess this band is important to me. :) I guess this song gets me through tough times as well on repeat.

I guess another band I REALLY should give credit to is:

3. Siam Shade: 1/3 Pure Heart Emotion

Sounds familiar? No? It’s pretty old from Rurouni Kenshin, but I heard this song before I even know wtf Ruruoni Kenshin was. So how I came upon this song was, you know the Hello Kitty Store that is in Japantown? LONG AGO, it used to be a Japanese music store filled with Japanese music cds of every kind (but back then as a 6th grader…I knew no artist to rouse up such an excitment I would have now)…and I wanted a Japanese music cd…but what? Because I didn’t know any. So I saw this “Jpop CD” and thought this should be good if it was labeled “Jpop CD”…and bought it and loved the 1st song which was 1/3 Pure Heart Emotion so much that all my friends knew how to hum the tune at the very least. and that was how I got interested MORE into japanese music. 

long….interest. :D funny though how I just started taking Japanese though in college huh? 

What is your stance on religion? Would you affiliate yourself with any?

I have no religion. I used to go to a Christian school and was taught Christianity so I know the basic knowledge and values of Christianity, but I have come to go astray from believing in “God” and rather…find myself wondering what I do believe. I rather believe in SOMETHING…but what?

I have an interest in Buddhism…I like their life style values and I find the principle of karma quite interesting as well, but I feel like Buddhism is more like a religion that guides your life style rather than actually plainly stating like the Western countries that you believe in “this God” or “that God”…of course there is Sakyamuni Buddha…but do people of Buddhist religion really go around stating that? I feel like they often believe that Buddha exists through the way they guide their lives? Feel free to disagree and tell me what is the right way to think of this because I’m pretty sure I’m offending people already. 

Well, that is my stance on religion. 

I’m probably going to fail at this because I hardly go on tumblr or even my blogger now that I used to blog on without fail usually at least within a couple of weeks of another one, but we’ll see.

Name two of the most significant people in your life and explain why.

That’s actually kind of a tough one. I personally believe that any one that I meet and get to know have in some way or another made a great impact on my life.

1. I guess the first person I would say is my grandmother. Though the sad thing is, I’ve come to realize the impact that she has had on my life more than ever when she passed away than when she was actually still around. From the simplest things in life as such as appreciating the fact I can walk…or run with the littlest of effort compared to when I watched her struggle even to push her walker and not have it roll out of control from her hands. So, every time as I exercise now, I usually run on the treadmill…simply because I can feel the gratitude of being able to run. But that’s just an example of the smallest things that has had an impact. I mean, I would say she probably changed my outlook on life completely and has made me take a step back in all my decisions that I have made throughout my college years and I don’t think I have regretted any decision yet  because of it. Simply put, she has put a light on things that I would have thought never really had a light to it in the first place.

2. Those darn people. I really want to say…right now…at this moment in time, all the people I’ve encountered in my life that have made fun of me, thought badly of me for god knows what reasons, and has put me down countless of times. I lump you guys all in a group. I would say all you guys that have made fun/bullied me/doubted me in 5th grade all the way sporadically to 11th grade and possibly even in college still at times have made me into a stronger person mentally. I really would like say “fuck you” to every single one of you and then I guess a sardonic thank you in a way. Because of your actions and words throughout my life, I have changed to be a stronger person mentally. Even though to this day, sometimes those memories still get me down but it just goes to show how sometimes words and actions can really cut you deep. and the sad thing is the person doing it or saying it probably never realized the effect it could have had and just said it/did it out of their immaturity then. But I guess the one type of people who I just can’t really stand are the people who doubt me moreso than than the people who make fun of how I look or look down at me for some shallow reasons. I mean the making fun of, I’ve grown used to it and frankly I don’t care anymore and as for the arrogance in people…man, you encounter it everywhere you go…so much “entitled” people in the world. But as for the doubting my abilities…I still struggle almost every day to have some sort of confidence built off of something I feel is concrete and substantial. For some reason…and I don’t know why, people always seem to feel like I can’t do something or I would never achieve a certain goal…but then it just motivates me to try to do so. I don’t succeed every time though, but at least I try. I dislike the ridicule/internal scoffing and sometimes outward scoffing. I’m not the type of person who goes around bragging about what I can do, but I tend to keep to myself. I’m also the type who takes a little longer to understand things…it doesn’t mean I can’t get to the goal, but it just might take me longer. So to all those people throughout my life, and at those times whom I had suffered internally through cycles of sadness, self-hate, anger, and indignation…a big thank you to you all.